Day 20 - What cake?

Day 20...over half way done, Only 10 days left....ten? feels like only a few days ago I was on day four and hating the world.

My husband ate candy one evening, I'm thinking day 6, I yelled at him from across the room. ACROSS THE ROOM! I was livid...how dare he go on with his lovely, candy eating life while I was stuck in my lone cold lonely plant eating life. Aww the dramatics. ;)

But now? now I can walk by the bakery in the store and not even bat an eye. I can watch my co workers munch on chips and not see red. I can eat my mushed up banana with raisins at the end of the day and actually think its a treat.

My head is clear, my bones feel strong, my organs cooperate with me, my energy is up and spirit is lifted.

Its been hard, and it will be a continued battle to keep myself in check...but I'm getting there. Its getting easier, I'm getting healthier. The bonds of junk food and sugar have been broken. Broken I Say (insert shaking fist at the world).

Basically...Tiger blood!

Day 10 - In tune

So whether you believe in God, earth elements, higher power...whatever it might be, its always a goal in life (at least in mine) to become closer to God. To be in tune with what he wants for me and what I can do for Him.

I have noticed that when I treat my body kindly, I become more in tune with nature, with everyday joys and miracles and with my God. I hear better, I see what He would like me to view in the world and am able to understand what an amazing gift I have been given. To have this body, imperfectly perfect as it is, to love it, to care for it and to enjoy it.

I speak with Him for freely, I enjoy his gift more whole and I appreciate everything more fully

You know what they say, when you love yourself, you can fully love other people, situations, things...life. Its true. I stop thinking about how I look, how others view me and what I have to do to survive the day in it. I start thinking of how the rain smells and sun feels, how great I feel and how I get to have another day in this body.

Going through the Whole 30 has been tough so far, and I'm sure its not over, but if this is one of the many benefits I get from it. Feeling in tune with myself, my life, my God. Then it has been well beyond worth it.

I am strong, Hear me roar!

So according to the timeline I looked at on whole30.com, right around now is when most people give up on their whole 30 journey. This is the time when you just plain don't want to prepare the meals, worry about looking at labels, get frustrated that you just cant run through taco bell on the way home AND aren't really seeing the magic this program says will happen.

I can totally see that, but on the other hand. If you look for the small things, the things you weren't able to do a week ago...it will keep you motivated. Here are a few of the things I was able to do, that would have just brought me to my knees last week (and did on a few occasions).

I was able to get snacks out of the fridge with out longingly looking at the cheese sitting right next to it, I was able to run a little longer then before and still have some energy for the rest of the day, I was able to drop my son off at daycare and not give the pile of candy they have on the counter up for grabs a second look, I was able to smile at a food joke someone made without thinking of the food and wishing I had it.

My body is finally realizing that this is happening, this is how its going to be and its getting with the program. I feel lighter, I feel healthier, I feel clear headed. Don't get me wrong, I still want that chocolate, and grilled cheese...but now I can brush off those cravings with much more ease then I did before. I"m sure those cravings will be there for a long long while, but its manageable and that my friend...is a miracle.

I can do this, I will do this, I am strong!

You can do this, You will do this, YOU are strong!!!!

Day 5 - Pizza

oh I tricked you, you thought I fell off the wagon, went to the dark side. Ordered an ate that large extra cheese pizza with extra grease....well I didn't.

I do however feel like a teen with raging skin, a pizza face if you will. Not the pizza I wanted! I know its because all the toxins are being flushed out. I imagine them being rocketed out of my body and this is there last ditch effort to hold on for their dear disgusting toxic life. You may have caused a scene, you nasty little thing...but you will be gone and I will have control of my skin again and you will be but a faint memory, not even a battle wound. So take that!

Day 4 of Whole 30

Ok I won't lie, its been a rough couple of days. I haven't been in the best of moods and by 7pm I have a splitting headache. All I want is a big bar of chocolate or a can of frosting. I usually begrudgingly eat a banana, cursing it while I try desperately to pretend its soft serve or cake.

Last night my husband asked me for something that was in my car. I looked at him full on and said "why can't you just leave me alone"   he seems to think my mood swings are funny, which helps. Its nice to know he's just letting things roll off his back instead of taking my detox as a personal assault.

I have to remember this is for my own good...why does that phrase always show up when you're hating life. My own good would be milk and cookies not salad and fish, at least thats what my mind is so desperately trying to tell me! But curse you mind! I will overpower you! This body will detox and sugar will loooooose!

on wards and upwards.

Whole 30

I started my whole 30 journey yesterday. I need to get all these toxins out of my system. I'm so addicted to sugar its ridiculous. I've been a fan of Paleo for a while now. I love how it makes me feel and look. But I went off track for a bit so need to get back in the groove. So whole 30 here I am.

I cleaned out my pantry and fridge, made a ten day meal plan, shopped for it and prepared all my Breakfasts, Snacks and Lunches for the next week.

I will do this, I will want to quit, I will feel like its going to be to hard...but I will NOT quit! I will succeed and I will rock it.